Author’s Note: My article
in the last issue was about handling losses in life wherein some
friends gave feedbacks how the item impacted them. Some are scions
of prominent families. One of them is kin of Kris Aquino, the presidential
daughter. Below are two of the responses I received from our global
readers. To protect the identity of the senders, I changed other identifying
marks, except for the names. Susan is a MassCom graduate with advertising
as major. Luz is another reader who sent a touching letter. Please
read on.
Hi Bob,
T'was a nice experience,
after having a chat with you...wow!!!! I never thought na ganun ka
pala kabigatin. And I’m proud to know someone like you. I was
able to read your articles, and I find out that it's all about your
"LOSSES". Hey, I can feel the pain there. I was actually
at the office when I read those, that's why I just scanned it. Pero
alam mo, I was really impressed huh! Actually I was taken aback...all
along kase, I thought I was able to handle my "LOSSES" very
greatly. ’Yon pala, I was just faking it. Honestly speaking,
the past few weeks were hell for me. Those were the times that I was
soooo depressed that I was not able to cry. I had to quit job (I was
working then as telephone operator at a premier Hotel), because the
HRD director. was making an enormous pressure on me and it's very
personal! (She doesn't find me beautiful kase). I know that I was
effective on my job, but I had to quit because it was not healthy
for me to work anymore. I’m losing my confidence and my efficiency.
That time I was having difficulty with my father. I'm the eldest of
seven and I’m the breadwinner. That's why the pressure of handling
the family's expenses was really a big headache for me. I was devastated
when I quit. I don't know how to tell my family. I kept it from them.
All along they thought I’m still working, when in fact I’m
already applying for another job. I had to fake everything. I have
to be cheerful so that my parents won't notice my anxiety; even my
smiles and laughter were fake. I wanted to cry but I did not allow
myself. I even told myself there's no use crying over spilled milk.
But honestly, I am really full of regrets and HATRED (for that bitch
HRD Director).
But after drowning
myself on the pool of self-pity, I had to climb back again...sabi
ko nga ang alam ko maganda ko, until mirror was invented. I just have
to laugh it away and ‘yon…I was able to look for a job.
I’m now here at an ad agency. The workload was quite new to me,
and I’m not properly compensated. Kaya lang sabi ko mabuti na
to kesa wala. I’m now in the process of enjoying it. nandito
na ko, eh.
Tapos I read your
article, and it slams down again on my face. I did not take my LOSS
the positive way. I let the pain and the hatred imbibed my very own
being. And I cried...after the long, long months of depression, my
tears ducts were alive again. I even tasted strangers tear, kase nga
tagal ko nang di umiyak…you know what really HIT me...’yong
sinabi mo na LIFE MUST BE HANDLED WITH CARE. And you are right...definitely,
the HRD at the premier Hotel was not brooding on my resignation, but
I am, talo ako di ba? Kaya nga I let it go na lang...and I learned
it from you. YOU ARE SUCH AN INSPIRATIONAL ONE!!!! THANKS FOR THAT
EXPERIENCE!
Sorry kung binigyan
kita ng nobela ha? I just thought I’ll let u know how you inspired
me...have a nice day BOB and a blessed heart as well...
Ciao,
Susan D' twinkling
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Dear Bob,
Reading your column made me cry for almost four hours. All the pains
I kept in my heart came out, asking myself why this had all happened
to me.
Alam mo kasi andaming sakit na nakatago dito sa heart ko. Ewan ko
ba kung bakit I can't let it out. When our mother died, the pains
had been coming to me since I was eight. Imagine ang bata-bata ko
pa nun sobra na ang sakit na dumating sa buhay ko. Inapi-api, inapak-apakan
at marami pa. Kung ikukuwento ko di kasya ang isang araw to type my
life story.
Pero you know I like your column talaga. Na-touch talaga ako.
More power to your column and I will make time to read all of it para
mabuo ko na ang sarili ko.
Salama ha!
Super talaga ang column mo. I can't expres how lucky am I to read
your column.
Thanks,
Luz
